wow.

sabi ko sa sarili ko noon, hindi na ako magkakagusto sa kahit sino sa internet pero hindi ko kayang hindi kausapin 'tong babaeng 'to na nakilala ko lang through chat. sobrang tagal na namin naguusap. 2 years na ata? im not sure. pero matagal na nga kami nagusap.

nung una, kala ko tomboy to. ang kulit kasing kausap. everytime na nakakausap ko before. parang lageng may tama. hindi ko makausap ng mabuti. tawa ng tawa. walang sineseryoso sa mga tanung ko. kaya kung anu ano na lang napapagkamalan ko sa kanya. sabe ko pa, sayang maganda pa naman tomboy nga lang.

grabe, sobrang crush ko talaga sya nung una ko pa lang sya nakita sa friendster. nagandahan na talaga ako sa kanya.

minsan nga, naiisip ko na may girlfriend sya, sobrang inggit talaga ako.

tas one time, natuwa na ako sa kanya, nakausap ko na sya ng matagal tagal sa ym. medyo nagkaroon kami ng mga seryosong conversation. nagkamali ako, marunong din palang makipagusap ng seryoso sya. mukhang ayos naman. kala ko kasi nun, may tama na talaga un.

tas un, napagusapan namin one time ung boyfriend niyang manyak. oo, boyfriend! dun ako nagulat. mali ako, hindi sya tomboy! natuwa naman akong hindi sya tomboy, pero i felt sorry sa kanya about sa nangyare sa kanya with her boyfriend.

ngaun, nagiging close na kami totally, nakakatuwa kasi sya, sobra. ang saya kausap. pero hindi pa ako nakakasigurado. nakikilala ko na ung 'totoong sya'. nalaman ko through convo namin na medyo magkapareho kami ng pagiisip pero syempre madami din kaming differences sa thinking.

tas nung isang araw, tinamaan ng kakulitan. binuking ako na may crush ako sa kanya. syempre hindi ko naman pwede sabihin na wala akong crush sa kanya diba. soo, oo na lang ako. hanggang nagsasabihan na kami ng ''i love you'' sa isat isa.

alam ko naman hindi un seryoso, i think. hindi ko naman masabe na seryoso sya dun. and takot akong mainlove sa internet. sobrang maloloko talaga ako. feeling ko talaga sobrang nagugustuhan ko na sya. panu yan kung napamahal ako sa kanya? tae naman. yoko talaga nito eh. haii.. anu ba.

yoko naman na iignore sya. masyadong sad un pag ginawa ko un. grabe talaga.

sa ngaun, hindi ko sya nakausap. haii.. sobrang nadisappointed ako, hindi sa kanya pero sa mga gusto kong ishare na mga conversations. grabe talaga. sa susunod na lang probably. hai. sad naman.

Buhay nga naman!

sulat muna ako about sa life ko ah. cant be bothered to speak in english. anyway....

ahh yes! congratulations kay ate maan and erwin, newly weds na silang dalawa, sobrang happy talaga ako para sa inyong dalawa. sana nag-hhuniebunchkins pa din kau hanggang tumanda kaung dalawa! sobrang pagtatawanan talaga kau ng mga apo natin nun. haha. hindi ko maimagine. mukhang hindi naman kayo maglolokohan. lagot ka talaga saken erwin kung nangyare un.

soo, ibig sabihin nun, hindi na sila sa bahay titira. nakapaghanap na silang dalawa ng apartment kasama si ate krystle with them. next week, wala na sila sa bahay. sobrang mamimiss ko silang dalawa katulad ni kuya and ate krystle. grabe talaga. maglilipat din kami, kasi sobrang daming vacant rooms and hindi na kaya bayaran ng parents ko ung mortgage.

nagsisimula ng maghanap ng new house sila mama. sana makahanap lang sila around new lynn. pero okay lang din naman kung hindi dun, gusto ko lang ung walking distance sa school and ung hindi mahihirapan sumakay ng bus. hehe. hirap din kasing makapag-adjust sa isang place eh. minsan talaga nahohome sick ako.

si ate angel, nagbabalak ng umalis ng new zealand para dun sa tomboy nyang partner sa dubai. pakshet talaga. hindi ko talaga masabe kay ate ung gusto ko talagang ilabas na feelings/galet sa kanya. hindi ko alam kung panu sisimulan. naasar ako dun sa tomboy nyang partner. alam kong hindi naman sya masama, pero naasar talaga ako everytime na naririnig ko name nya tas sila ysa and monica, medyo close na sila. fuuucccckkkkk. anu ba meron sa kanya? tangena talaga.

hay, panu na nyan si mama? hindi lalo sya makakatulog ng mabuti nito kasi sa mga nangyayare sa family namin ngaun, tas siguro magkaka-financial problem nanaman kami dahil kay daddy. alam ko lageng nagaalala kela kuya at ate krystle un. tas mawawala pa sa sila ate maan and ate angel.

nagaalala talaga ako kay mama, gusto ko syang tulungan pero hindi ko alam kung panu. hindi ko pa napipicture sarili after highschool. kung successful ba ako. ewan. even kung nakatapos ako ng university. hindi pa nga ako sure kung IT talaga gusto kong kunin sa university eh. parang ako na lang tuloy last resort ni mama sa lahat ng pinoproblema nya. gusto ko talagang hindi madisappoint saken si mama. anu ba yan. ewan ewan ewan. minsan talaga. ito lang ung pumoproblema saken. hindi ako makapagisip ng maayos dahil sa mga nangyayare. sana okay pa kami pag nakapaglipat na kami.

ganito ba talaga dapat? haay. sobrang naiipit ako sa mga nangyayare. dapat hindi ito iniisip ko eh. dapat nagpapakasaya ako sa mga friends ko. dapat ginagawa ko ung mga ginagawa ng mga ordinaryong bata dyan sa labas. hindi ito, nagpoproblema sa buhay. hindi ko nga alam kung pupunta pa akong prom next term, para kasing malaking gastos un. tas wala pa ako masyadong ipon. grabedad talaga.

hindi ako ganito before kami pumunta dito sa punyetang new zealand eh. sobrang masayahin talaga ako. happy-go-lucky-highschool student ung walang iniisip na kung anu ano at sila nagpoproblema saken. tae miss ko na talaga ung dating ako. tae naman kasi. maganda naman buhay namin sa pinas. bat pa kami pumunta dito. hindi naman kami namomroblema sa buhay. daddy ko lang naman ung may tinatakbuhan kaya sya pumunta dito. punyeta.

ung una pa lang, naamoy ko na ung problema nung pagkababa na pagkababa ko dito sa new zealand eh. tae talaga. bat ba kami pumunta dito? wala naman problema sa financial. maganda position ni daddy sa trabaho niya. vice president. tas kung pinatapos lang nya kami ng college sa pinas, dapat walang problema na ngaun. eh hindi. haay.

anu ba. ganito ba talaga dapat? sana maayos na ito kahit alam kong impossible. haay. punyeta talaga. sa susunod na lang ulit. salamat sa pagbabasa sa masaya kong buhay.

Butler’s basket helps Wizards force Game 6

CLEVELAND (AP)—Caron Butler whispered in LeBron James’ ear, one last word in case the Washington Wizards’ season was about to end.

With only a few ticks of the clock left, desperate times called for desperate measures.

“I was messing with LeBron before the play started,” Butler said. “I told him, ‘Miss this shot, make it interesting and let’s take this thing back to D.C.”’

Seconds later, the Wizards were on their way home—for Game 6.

Butler made a layup with 3.9 seconds left and the Wizards held their breath as James missed a potential series and season-ending layup at the horn, giving Washington an 88-87 victory Wednesday night and adding at least one more game to this overheated NBA playoff series.

After Butler scored on a tough drive past James, the Cavs had one more chance, but their superstar couldn’t get a banked runner to drop as the Wizards, who have had their past three seasons ended by Cleveland, pulled within 3-2 in the best-of-seven series.

Once off the floor, Butler ran down the hallway toward the Wizards’ locker room. He pulled off his jersey and shouted: “D.C., stand up! D.C., stand up!” before joining his excited teammates.

Butler scored 32 points and DeShawn Stevenson had 17 for the Wizards, who played without guard Gilbert Arenas and got only eight points from the normally reliable Antawn Jamison. Arenas announced before the game that his season was over because of a bothersome knee. His absence figured to be the decisive blow for the Wizards, but they fought to the finish and, at least for now, prevented the Cavs from ending their season.

Butler made sure of it.

“He played it like it was his last game, which it could have been,” Arenas said. “He showed leadership and poise out there. Great players make great moves and he did it tonight and he’s on his way to stardom because he’s doing it on a big stage.”

Butler also stole a page from James.

In Game 6 two years ago at Washington, James approached Arenas at the foul line in the final seconds and warned him not to miss his free throws or the game was over. Arenas misfired on both attempts and the Cavaliers ended the series on a last-second jumper by Damon Jones.

This time, it was James who came up short.

“He told me to miss the shot so we would go back to D.C.,” James said. “There it was.”

James scored 34 points—24 in the second half—but was unable to make the final shot in traffic that would have sent the Wizards, who began talking trash weeks ago and haven’t stopped, quietly into the summer. The Cavaliers led by five with 1:47 left, but took bad shots down the stretch and allowed Washington to score the final six points and end a five-game playoff losing streak in Cleveland.

James, who has withstood body blows throughout the series, felt he was fouled on his final shot but didn’t make excuses.

“I thought it was going to go in,” he said. “It just didn’t fall.”

It’s the second straight year that the Cavaliers were up 3-1 and failed to close out a team at home. Last postseason, Cleveland led New Jersey 3-1 but lost Game 5 at home before finally putting the Nets away on the road. The Cavs seemed to have learned from that lesson and were almost booked for the next round when Delonte West’s three-point play put them up 87-82.

Butler then scored on a layup sandwiched between two missed 3-pointers by Cleveland, and Antonio Daniels hit two free throws to pull the Wizards within 87-86 with 43 seconds left. Cleveland’s Joe Smith missed a short inside shot and Zydrunas Ilgauskas couldn’t steer in a tip.

Following a timeout, the Wizards cleared the floor for Butler, who burst past James and got an arching layup, which threatened to dance out, fall through the rim.

Washington has been beaten by so many last-second shots from Cleveland in the playoffs, and as James drove past Stevenson to the basket on the Cavs’ last possession, it looked as if the Wizards were going to go down in heartbreaking fashion again.

But James, who was bumped by Darius Songaila, didn’t come through and Stevenson, whose running feud has been one of the subplots in a series as juicy as a day-time TV soap, ran to midcourt and celebrated the Wizards’ good luck.

“We finally got a miss,” said relieved Wizards coach Eddie Jordan.

This series has had it all: trash talk, villains, heroes, rap stars and, of course, the Stevenson vs. James feud that seems personal and professional. And now, it will continue.

Arenas was casually sitting in a chair in Washington’s locker room discussing a recent movie he had seen, when he stunningly announced his lost season was over. The three-time All-Star, who missed 66 regular-season games following knee surgery, played in the first four games in the series despite a painful deep bone bruise.

But he wasn’t himself, and Arenas decided to start getting ready for next season a little early.

His teammates had other plans.

On Tuesday, the Wizards were visited by Abe Pollin, their 84-year-old owner who talked to them about past playoff successes and failures. Pollin spoke of times when Washington has overcome 3-1 deficits, and the Wizards have a chance to do it again.

“It was very, very good for us,” Stevenson said of the meeting with the ailing Pollin, the league’s senior owner. “He told us to win a game for him, and that’s what we did.”

As if on cue, the Wizards and Cavaliers were at each other’s throats early.

With 3:20 left in the first quarter, James was fouled on a baseline drive by Songaila, whose left forearm caught James on the chin. Songaila was assessed a technical foul for the latest rough foul of the series.

James refused to comment on the play, perhaps not wanting to give the Wizards any more motivation than they already have.

Following Game 4, James said he didn’t think the Wizards could come back.

He hasn’t changed his mind.

“We’re still up 3-2,” he said.

Notes

Only eight of 174 teams have overcome 3-1 deficits to win. … James added 10 rebounds and seven assists, becoming the first player to score at least 34 points with 10 rebounds and seven assists in two straight playoff games since Larry Bird in 1984. … Cavs F Sasha Pavlovic, sidelined since April 16 with a sprained left ankle, was active but didn’t play. Arenas sat on the bench in street clothes, cheering on every miss and make by his teammates.

SOURCE: http://sports.yahoo.com/nba/recap;_ylt=AuzqbKNgqoV46OMNO86ngKO8vLYF?gid=2008043005