Rely

Nagbabalik.. Tagal ko ng hindi nakakapagpost dito sa blog ko..
Anyways.. bakit ba talaga ako ganito? sobrang badtrip talaga.. buti pa sila may lakas ng loob na magsabe ng totoo sa mga gusto nila.. ako.. naghihintay sa panahong hindi lage nangyayare.. ewan ko.. mahina lang talaga ang loob ko.. mahina na magsabe ng totoo.. mahina ako sa lahat ng bagay na gusto kong gawin.. na gusto kong kunin.. na gustong gusto ko sa buhay.. badtrip talaga.. kailan na ba ako magbabago.. kailan na ba ako magiging magaling sa bagay na makakapagbago sa mahina kong buhay.. malas na buhay.. sa tingin ko pa nga.. wala akong buhay.. badtrip.. ngaun.. naghihintay sa panahon na makakapagbago saken.. at sa mga taong dumadating, patawad kung hindi ako ganun kagaling na makipagkilala sa inyo at nakakapagkalamang snoberong lalakeng.. pero hindi lang talaga ako madaling magbigay ng tiwala sa mga taong sa tingin kong iiwan din ako kinabukasan.. naninigurado lang..

pero..

iba ang nasa isip ko ngaun.. pagibig..

papanu ko ba 'to sisimulan na sobrang gusto ko ng sumabog.. sobrang nawawalan na ako ng pagasa sa babaeng, sa tingin kong sya na lang ang naiiwan saken dito.. PERO mali ang lahat ng iyon.. ako lang talaga ang may problema.. ewan.. ewan.. ewan.. un na lang lage nasa isip ko.. badtrip.. hindi na nagbago.. pero kahit ganun pa din ang nasa isip.. umaasa pa din na sana kahit konti na magkagusto saken.. sana.. sana.. sana nga mangyare un.. at sa tingin ko naman na possible un.. pero hindi pa siguro.. mababa pa sa 50% ang pagasa.. pero alam kong tataas pa at dadating ang panahon na mapapaibig din sya saken.. hehe..



ANYWAYS..




BYE.!

If One Day You Found Me Gone

if one day you woke up and found me gone
with no trace to where i would have been
would you dare to look for me?

and if your search took you so long
will it ever occur to you to stop looking?
will you ever get tired waiting?

and if you realized that i’ll be gone forever
would you still think of me?
would you still remember our moments together?

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/05/12/if-one-day-you-found-me-gone/

When Loneliness Strikes

when loneliness strikes and kills my peace
i can’t move a bit and i got stuck in my place
i can’t breathe, i can’t think, i am numb
the world around me moves in fast phase
the time is so fast as well as my heartbeat
i am now starting to feel dizzy
and my sight is starting to blur
i am trapped in confusion and i am freaking
this moment of shock is killing me
i can’t talk, my lips are sealed
i can’t move, my body is glued standing
i am struggling, i am going to faint
this loneliness is suffocating me
i can’t grasp to anything around me
nobody could hear, my lips are still sealed
take me somewhere, be with me
i am alone and i don’t wanna be


SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/05/12/when-loneliness-strikes/

You

you stayed with me
when i was alone

you lend me your shoulder
when i was crying

you shared me your strength
when i was weak

you become my guide
when i was lost

you told me “have faith”
when i was hopeless

you gave me attention
when i was ignored

and you loved me much
more that i think you can =)

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/02/14/you/

Killing Me In Silence

a moment of silence is echoing around me
as i watch the ticking of the clock’s hand
the time is so slow like it will never end

i am being suffocated with empty words
i am being haunted with the guilt inside
i want this to end right away but i can’t

the silence of the day is killing me
the pain inside is growing much more
the bigger it gets, the more i suffer

kill me now and end my suffering
the more i hear of this silence
the much more i feel the pain

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/04/04/killing-me-in-silence/

Once in My Life

Once in my life
I fell in love
I learned to give up
Everything that I had
But then, once in my life
I fell out of love
Suffering the pains
It had given my heart
I stumbled down
And bleed out
But then, once in my life
I learned to conquer
All the pains and fear
And then, each day of my life
Helped heal the wound
Inside of me
Helped me to forget
All that had happened
And soon I realized
That once in my life
I met a man
Who taught me about
The real meaning of love.

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/04/09/poem-once-in-my-life/

Once Again

All the laughter
That we had
All the sad moments
That we shared
Are all engraved in my mind
I don’t know why
You’re still in my thoughts
I’m just being honest
With myself and with you
That I can’t forget
All the times we’re together
Sharing smiles and tears
To one another
I know it’s my fault
That’s why you go away
And now you’re gone
Gone out of my sight
Gone out of my side
Gone without words of goodbye
I can’t help
Not to blame myself
Because of me, you left
And now I am alone
Sitting by the window
Waiting for your call
I gaze at the sky
Watched the twinkling of stars
And wished by the moon
That someday, somehow
I’ll learn to forget
Your voice, your face
Your sweetness and kindness
And as the day passes by
I wished that time
Would heal the wounds in my heart
Once again.


SOURCE: ilovepoetry.com

Empty Chatroom

hello room, why are you sad?
your users are empty
but your history is long

we are just here, lurking around
looking at you, reading your words
checking whose been in and out

you’ll be fine, don’t worry
when we are not busy
we’ll drop by to say hi

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/05/19/empty-chatroom/

Trapik

Traffic light
oh traffic light
patay-sindi
parang disco light

Nguso ng mga dyipni
Parang ngiping dikit-dikit
Buhol-buhol na trapik
Sa mata’y anong sakit

Busina nila
Sa tenga’y nakatutuliglig
Usok ng tambutso
Sa dibdib ay nakasisikip

Usad ng sasakyan
Iisang pulgada lamang
At kung umandar man
Parang pagong sa kabagalan

Pasahero sa dyip
Sa tagal ay naidlip
Tulo ang laway
Habang humihilik

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/02/14/trapik/

Date

matamis na tsokolate
at rosas na ’san dosena

damit na pula
at konting pomada

isang ikot sa salamin
sarili’y iniestima

isang kindat pa
at lalarga na

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/02/14/date/

wow.

sabi ko sa sarili ko noon, hindi na ako magkakagusto sa kahit sino sa internet pero hindi ko kayang hindi kausapin 'tong babaeng 'to na nakilala ko lang through chat. sobrang tagal na namin naguusap. 2 years na ata? im not sure. pero matagal na nga kami nagusap.

nung una, kala ko tomboy to. ang kulit kasing kausap. everytime na nakakausap ko before. parang lageng may tama. hindi ko makausap ng mabuti. tawa ng tawa. walang sineseryoso sa mga tanung ko. kaya kung anu ano na lang napapagkamalan ko sa kanya. sabe ko pa, sayang maganda pa naman tomboy nga lang.

grabe, sobrang crush ko talaga sya nung una ko pa lang sya nakita sa friendster. nagandahan na talaga ako sa kanya.

minsan nga, naiisip ko na may girlfriend sya, sobrang inggit talaga ako.

tas one time, natuwa na ako sa kanya, nakausap ko na sya ng matagal tagal sa ym. medyo nagkaroon kami ng mga seryosong conversation. nagkamali ako, marunong din palang makipagusap ng seryoso sya. mukhang ayos naman. kala ko kasi nun, may tama na talaga un.

tas un, napagusapan namin one time ung boyfriend niyang manyak. oo, boyfriend! dun ako nagulat. mali ako, hindi sya tomboy! natuwa naman akong hindi sya tomboy, pero i felt sorry sa kanya about sa nangyare sa kanya with her boyfriend.

ngaun, nagiging close na kami totally, nakakatuwa kasi sya, sobra. ang saya kausap. pero hindi pa ako nakakasigurado. nakikilala ko na ung 'totoong sya'. nalaman ko through convo namin na medyo magkapareho kami ng pagiisip pero syempre madami din kaming differences sa thinking.

tas nung isang araw, tinamaan ng kakulitan. binuking ako na may crush ako sa kanya. syempre hindi ko naman pwede sabihin na wala akong crush sa kanya diba. soo, oo na lang ako. hanggang nagsasabihan na kami ng ''i love you'' sa isat isa.

alam ko naman hindi un seryoso, i think. hindi ko naman masabe na seryoso sya dun. and takot akong mainlove sa internet. sobrang maloloko talaga ako. feeling ko talaga sobrang nagugustuhan ko na sya. panu yan kung napamahal ako sa kanya? tae naman. yoko talaga nito eh. haii.. anu ba.

yoko naman na iignore sya. masyadong sad un pag ginawa ko un. grabe talaga.

sa ngaun, hindi ko sya nakausap. haii.. sobrang nadisappointed ako, hindi sa kanya pero sa mga gusto kong ishare na mga conversations. grabe talaga. sa susunod na lang probably. hai. sad naman.

Buhay nga naman!

sulat muna ako about sa life ko ah. cant be bothered to speak in english. anyway....

ahh yes! congratulations kay ate maan and erwin, newly weds na silang dalawa, sobrang happy talaga ako para sa inyong dalawa. sana nag-hhuniebunchkins pa din kau hanggang tumanda kaung dalawa! sobrang pagtatawanan talaga kau ng mga apo natin nun. haha. hindi ko maimagine. mukhang hindi naman kayo maglolokohan. lagot ka talaga saken erwin kung nangyare un.

soo, ibig sabihin nun, hindi na sila sa bahay titira. nakapaghanap na silang dalawa ng apartment kasama si ate krystle with them. next week, wala na sila sa bahay. sobrang mamimiss ko silang dalawa katulad ni kuya and ate krystle. grabe talaga. maglilipat din kami, kasi sobrang daming vacant rooms and hindi na kaya bayaran ng parents ko ung mortgage.

nagsisimula ng maghanap ng new house sila mama. sana makahanap lang sila around new lynn. pero okay lang din naman kung hindi dun, gusto ko lang ung walking distance sa school and ung hindi mahihirapan sumakay ng bus. hehe. hirap din kasing makapag-adjust sa isang place eh. minsan talaga nahohome sick ako.

si ate angel, nagbabalak ng umalis ng new zealand para dun sa tomboy nyang partner sa dubai. pakshet talaga. hindi ko talaga masabe kay ate ung gusto ko talagang ilabas na feelings/galet sa kanya. hindi ko alam kung panu sisimulan. naasar ako dun sa tomboy nyang partner. alam kong hindi naman sya masama, pero naasar talaga ako everytime na naririnig ko name nya tas sila ysa and monica, medyo close na sila. fuuucccckkkkk. anu ba meron sa kanya? tangena talaga.

hay, panu na nyan si mama? hindi lalo sya makakatulog ng mabuti nito kasi sa mga nangyayare sa family namin ngaun, tas siguro magkaka-financial problem nanaman kami dahil kay daddy. alam ko lageng nagaalala kela kuya at ate krystle un. tas mawawala pa sa sila ate maan and ate angel.

nagaalala talaga ako kay mama, gusto ko syang tulungan pero hindi ko alam kung panu. hindi ko pa napipicture sarili after highschool. kung successful ba ako. ewan. even kung nakatapos ako ng university. hindi pa nga ako sure kung IT talaga gusto kong kunin sa university eh. parang ako na lang tuloy last resort ni mama sa lahat ng pinoproblema nya. gusto ko talagang hindi madisappoint saken si mama. anu ba yan. ewan ewan ewan. minsan talaga. ito lang ung pumoproblema saken. hindi ako makapagisip ng maayos dahil sa mga nangyayare. sana okay pa kami pag nakapaglipat na kami.

ganito ba talaga dapat? haay. sobrang naiipit ako sa mga nangyayare. dapat hindi ito iniisip ko eh. dapat nagpapakasaya ako sa mga friends ko. dapat ginagawa ko ung mga ginagawa ng mga ordinaryong bata dyan sa labas. hindi ito, nagpoproblema sa buhay. hindi ko nga alam kung pupunta pa akong prom next term, para kasing malaking gastos un. tas wala pa ako masyadong ipon. grabedad talaga.

hindi ako ganito before kami pumunta dito sa punyetang new zealand eh. sobrang masayahin talaga ako. happy-go-lucky-highschool student ung walang iniisip na kung anu ano at sila nagpoproblema saken. tae miss ko na talaga ung dating ako. tae naman kasi. maganda naman buhay namin sa pinas. bat pa kami pumunta dito. hindi naman kami namomroblema sa buhay. daddy ko lang naman ung may tinatakbuhan kaya sya pumunta dito. punyeta.

ung una pa lang, naamoy ko na ung problema nung pagkababa na pagkababa ko dito sa new zealand eh. tae talaga. bat ba kami pumunta dito? wala naman problema sa financial. maganda position ni daddy sa trabaho niya. vice president. tas kung pinatapos lang nya kami ng college sa pinas, dapat walang problema na ngaun. eh hindi. haay.

anu ba. ganito ba talaga dapat? sana maayos na ito kahit alam kong impossible. haay. punyeta talaga. sa susunod na lang ulit. salamat sa pagbabasa sa masaya kong buhay.

Butler’s basket helps Wizards force Game 6

CLEVELAND (AP)—Caron Butler whispered in LeBron James’ ear, one last word in case the Washington Wizards’ season was about to end.

With only a few ticks of the clock left, desperate times called for desperate measures.

“I was messing with LeBron before the play started,” Butler said. “I told him, ‘Miss this shot, make it interesting and let’s take this thing back to D.C.”’

Seconds later, the Wizards were on their way home—for Game 6.

Butler made a layup with 3.9 seconds left and the Wizards held their breath as James missed a potential series and season-ending layup at the horn, giving Washington an 88-87 victory Wednesday night and adding at least one more game to this overheated NBA playoff series.

After Butler scored on a tough drive past James, the Cavs had one more chance, but their superstar couldn’t get a banked runner to drop as the Wizards, who have had their past three seasons ended by Cleveland, pulled within 3-2 in the best-of-seven series.

Once off the floor, Butler ran down the hallway toward the Wizards’ locker room. He pulled off his jersey and shouted: “D.C., stand up! D.C., stand up!” before joining his excited teammates.

Butler scored 32 points and DeShawn Stevenson had 17 for the Wizards, who played without guard Gilbert Arenas and got only eight points from the normally reliable Antawn Jamison. Arenas announced before the game that his season was over because of a bothersome knee. His absence figured to be the decisive blow for the Wizards, but they fought to the finish and, at least for now, prevented the Cavs from ending their season.

Butler made sure of it.

“He played it like it was his last game, which it could have been,” Arenas said. “He showed leadership and poise out there. Great players make great moves and he did it tonight and he’s on his way to stardom because he’s doing it on a big stage.”

Butler also stole a page from James.

In Game 6 two years ago at Washington, James approached Arenas at the foul line in the final seconds and warned him not to miss his free throws or the game was over. Arenas misfired on both attempts and the Cavaliers ended the series on a last-second jumper by Damon Jones.

This time, it was James who came up short.

“He told me to miss the shot so we would go back to D.C.,” James said. “There it was.”

James scored 34 points—24 in the second half—but was unable to make the final shot in traffic that would have sent the Wizards, who began talking trash weeks ago and haven’t stopped, quietly into the summer. The Cavaliers led by five with 1:47 left, but took bad shots down the stretch and allowed Washington to score the final six points and end a five-game playoff losing streak in Cleveland.

James, who has withstood body blows throughout the series, felt he was fouled on his final shot but didn’t make excuses.

“I thought it was going to go in,” he said. “It just didn’t fall.”

It’s the second straight year that the Cavaliers were up 3-1 and failed to close out a team at home. Last postseason, Cleveland led New Jersey 3-1 but lost Game 5 at home before finally putting the Nets away on the road. The Cavs seemed to have learned from that lesson and were almost booked for the next round when Delonte West’s three-point play put them up 87-82.

Butler then scored on a layup sandwiched between two missed 3-pointers by Cleveland, and Antonio Daniels hit two free throws to pull the Wizards within 87-86 with 43 seconds left. Cleveland’s Joe Smith missed a short inside shot and Zydrunas Ilgauskas couldn’t steer in a tip.

Following a timeout, the Wizards cleared the floor for Butler, who burst past James and got an arching layup, which threatened to dance out, fall through the rim.

Washington has been beaten by so many last-second shots from Cleveland in the playoffs, and as James drove past Stevenson to the basket on the Cavs’ last possession, it looked as if the Wizards were going to go down in heartbreaking fashion again.

But James, who was bumped by Darius Songaila, didn’t come through and Stevenson, whose running feud has been one of the subplots in a series as juicy as a day-time TV soap, ran to midcourt and celebrated the Wizards’ good luck.

“We finally got a miss,” said relieved Wizards coach Eddie Jordan.

This series has had it all: trash talk, villains, heroes, rap stars and, of course, the Stevenson vs. James feud that seems personal and professional. And now, it will continue.

Arenas was casually sitting in a chair in Washington’s locker room discussing a recent movie he had seen, when he stunningly announced his lost season was over. The three-time All-Star, who missed 66 regular-season games following knee surgery, played in the first four games in the series despite a painful deep bone bruise.

But he wasn’t himself, and Arenas decided to start getting ready for next season a little early.

His teammates had other plans.

On Tuesday, the Wizards were visited by Abe Pollin, their 84-year-old owner who talked to them about past playoff successes and failures. Pollin spoke of times when Washington has overcome 3-1 deficits, and the Wizards have a chance to do it again.

“It was very, very good for us,” Stevenson said of the meeting with the ailing Pollin, the league’s senior owner. “He told us to win a game for him, and that’s what we did.”

As if on cue, the Wizards and Cavaliers were at each other’s throats early.

With 3:20 left in the first quarter, James was fouled on a baseline drive by Songaila, whose left forearm caught James on the chin. Songaila was assessed a technical foul for the latest rough foul of the series.

James refused to comment on the play, perhaps not wanting to give the Wizards any more motivation than they already have.

Following Game 4, James said he didn’t think the Wizards could come back.

He hasn’t changed his mind.

“We’re still up 3-2,” he said.

Notes

Only eight of 174 teams have overcome 3-1 deficits to win. … James added 10 rebounds and seven assists, becoming the first player to score at least 34 points with 10 rebounds and seven assists in two straight playoff games since Larry Bird in 1984. … Cavs F Sasha Pavlovic, sidelined since April 16 with a sprained left ankle, was active but didn’t play. Arenas sat on the bench in street clothes, cheering on every miss and make by his teammates.

SOURCE: http://sports.yahoo.com/nba/recap;_ylt=AuzqbKNgqoV46OMNO86ngKO8vLYF?gid=2008043005

Wizards-LeBron feud

Fah, The Wizards survived on game 5 against Cavaliers. I did not expect to happen that. I was expecting that LeBron was gonna do his 'thing' on game 5 but the Wizards did let him.

This series has had it all: trash talk, villains, heroes, rap stars and, of course, the Stevenson vs. James feud that seems personal and professional. And now, it will continue.

I think that only few teams can win over 3-1 deficit to win and Wizards is not one of that 'few teams'.

So, lets see on game 6 on Friday.

Playoff series. Favourite.

Ohh, Hornets advanced to the 2nd round and the Mavericks going home with empty handed. Hornets' star Chris Paul grabbed 24 points, 15 assists and 11 rebounds, and the Hornets held on for a 99-94 victory over the Dallas Mavericks to win their first-round series in five games. Chris Paul was just talented and had a triple-double to help the Hornets advanced past Dallas.

After the lost of Dallas, Dallas Mavericks' owner Mark Cuban fired coach Avery Johnson. Johnson leaves with an impressive resume after three-plus seasons, but Mavs owner Mark Cuban couldn’t tolerate two straight years of first-round exits.

Dallas didn’t win a single road game against the Heat, Warriors or Hornets, an 0-9 skid that was too much to overcome.

The final mark during Johnson’s tenure: 194-70 in the regular season, 23-24 in the playoffs.

On Pistons-Sixers series, The power 4 of Pistons Billups, Wallace, Prince and Hamilton nearly beat the Sixers. Billups had 21 points and 12 assists, Wallace had 19 points and 6 block shots, Hamilton had 20 points and Prince had 17 points to lift Detroit to a 98-81 win over the Sixers and a 3-2 lead in the 1st round series.

The series is not over yet. The Sixers might win their game 6 on Thursday night in Philadelphia. Their not gonna let the Detroit to win with an easy game on game 6. It is the do or die game for the Sixers. This series is still unfinished.

Still waiting

Wow, I just checked the NBA official website and I saw that Orlando and Los Angeles advanced to the 2nd round of the playoffs. For me, I was expecting Orlando and Los Angeles to beat Toronto and Denver respectively.

On Orlando's win, Dwight Howard truly showed his incredible talent and he got 21 points with 21 rebounds. It was his 3rd 20-20 in the 1st round series. The Magic advanced to the 2nd round for the first time since in 1996 by beating Toronto Raptors 102-92 in game 5 on Monday.

Dwight is a real phenom and I think he is the best center in the league.

On Lakers' win, It was a sweep against the Denver Nuggets who was one of the strongest teams in the season but Nuggets could not stop Lakers' star Kobe Bryant who scored 14 of his 31 points 5½ minutes of the last quarter.


But It was not still I'm looking forward for. I am still waiting for the Cleveland Cavaliers to move one for the 2nd round of the playoffs and kick Wizards' asses.

GO LeBron, My MVP!

GO CLEVELAND!

let me paint the picture for you...
in the west...

Lakers v Nuggets Lakers move on
Jazz v Rockets Jazz move on
Spurs v Suns Spurs move on
Hornets v Mavs Hornets move on

Lakers v Jazz Lakers move on
Spurs v Hornets Spurs move on

Lakers v Spurs Lakers move on to finals

In the EAST

Celtics v Hawks lol Celtics move on
Cavs v Wizards Cavs move on
Magic v Raptors Magic move on
Pistons v Sixers Sixers move on

Celtics v Clevland Clevland moves on
Magic v Sixers Sixers move on

Clevland v Sixers Clevland moves on

NBA FINALS
LAKERS v CLEVLAND

Well, thats my nba prediction for these playoff matchups but i think the playoffs are going to be surprising. It will be a big game between two unstoppoble explosive scorers, "Kobe Bryant versus LeBron James". It is really hard to tell who is going to win the game between this two players. I pretty like them both and they both play in different ways. But still I am a faithful Cleveland Cavaliers fan and I don't care to the people who tell that LeBron doesn't know how to shoot, lay up, drive and whatever it is. He He. Win or Lose, Cleveland is still my team.

NBA CHAMPIONS CLEVLAND CAVILIERS

SOURCE: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=Arqv4sdyAxQD4Y9..kKfjBhVxQt.;_ylv=3?qid=20080423091551AA4povG

James scores 30 as Cavaliers beat up Wizards 116-86

For more than two months since a colossal trade dismantled the defending Eastern Conference champions, Cleveland has waited for the game where its team of mixed parts and new faces finally molded into a legitimate NBA title contender.

It happened.

Maybe Gilbert Arenas was talking about some other Cavaliers a few weeks back. The team he faced Monday night doesn’t look so beatable.

LeBron James scored 30 points, Zydrunas Ilgauskas added 16, and the Cavs played their best game since the Feb. 21 megatrade, blowing out the Washington Wizards 116-86 to take a 2-0 lead in an opening-round playoff series oozing with bad blood.

The 30-point margin of victory was the largest in Cleveland’s 112-game postseason history, and the Cavaliers’ performance was perhaps their finest 48 minutes since November.

“We are playing the champs,” Wizards coach Eddie Jordan said. “I know they changed their team. But they still have the same coaching staff, the monster player and he’s taking over the series.”

James was scary all right.

He scored 14 points in the third quarter when the Cavs opened a 25-point lead over the Wizards, whose defensive scheme coming into their third series in as many years with Cleveland was to slow the superstar by roughing him up with hard, clean fouls.

It may be time for Plan B.

The Wizards hardly bothered James, who finished with 12 assists and nine rebounds, barely missing his third career postseason triple-double. James went to the bench with 6:12 left. At that point, the Cavaliers were leading by 24 points and coach Mike Brown inserted seldom-used reserves Dwayne Jones and Damon Jones.

With his team up by 15 at halftime, Brown began reminding his team about the importance of staying aggressive. He only got in a few words.

“I didn’t say anything,” Brown said. “LeBron James did. LeBron started talking, I just left and the guys just followed his lead.”

Wally Szczerbiak added 15 points for the Cavs, who have struggled with injuries and inconsistency since GM Danny Ferry dealt half his roster at the trading deadline. With Cleveland staggering, Arenas called out the Cavs, saying “I think everybody wants Cleveland in that first round” and “We don’t think they can beat us in the playoffs three years straight.”

Those comments followed Wizards forward DeShawn Stevenson calling James “overrated.”

Washington is eating its words.

The Wizards have lost eight straight playoff games to Cleveland, and they’ll have to figure out something before Thursday night’s Game 3 in Washington or they’ll be heading off on summer vacation, again courtesy of the Cavs.

Arenas went 2-for-10 from the field and Caron Butler and Antawn Jamison were both 4-of-13 as the Wizards’ Big Three combined for 28 points. The trio spent much of the fourth quarter sitting and thinking about what happened and the task ahead.

“For us to come out undisciplined and unfocused was real disappointing,” Jamison said.

Despite all the trash talk, Jamison insists the Wizards weren’t taking the Cavs lightly.

“We didn’t underestimate anybody,” he said. “We know this is a very special team. They didn’t play well in the last month of the regular season, but just like any veteran team, when the playoffs get started you’re going to elevate your game.

“Let’s be honest. Some guys talked. It’s over with. We know this team is capable of not only going past the first round but going past that.”

James withstood more rough treatment by the Wizards.

In the third quarter, Washington center Brendan Haywood was ejected for a flagrant foul on James. Haywood didn’t make much of an effort to go for the ball and shoved James hard with both hands as he drove and the All-Star went flying out of bounds.

“It was scary,” said James, who compared it to when he got undercut as a high school junior and broke his wrist. “I knew it was going to be a tough fall. I bounced up, though.”

Haywood, who had an altercation with James in Game 1, could face further discipline for the intentional foul. He didn’t speak to the media and was escorted from Quicken Loans Arena by a security guard.

James didn’t have an opinion on whether Haywood should be suspended.

“It was not a basketball play in any shape or form,” he said.

It was hardly the only physical one.

In the first half, Arenas was called for a technical foul and Cleveland’s Anderson Varejao was given a flagrant foul after hitting Washington’s Andray Blatche in the face.

The Wizards may be acting like bullies, but they insist they don’t want to do anything more than make James work harder.

“There’s a difference between taking hard fouls and trying to hurt somebody,” Washington’s Antonio Daniels said. “No one in this locker room or that locker room fouls anybody with the intention of hurting him. That’s not the way the NBA is. That’s not the way it’s played. We all get knocked to the floor. That’s playoff basketball. When you drive, you should expect to get hit.”

The Wizards’ problem in Game 1 was they missed shots the down stretch with a chance to win. They were cold again, but this time it had a lot to do with Cleveland’s defense. Washington shot 38 percent from the field, missed 11 free throws and was outrebounded 49-34 while being outscored 80-50 over the final 30 minutes.

Notes

The 116 points were the Cavs’ most in a regulation playoff game since May 17, 1992, when they scored 122 against Boston. … In 35 playoff games, James is averaging 27.5 points, 8.0 rebounds and 7.2 assists. … The Cavaliers are 6-0 in series when they win Game 1, including 3-0 against the Wizards. … Washington fell to 2-13 in its last 15 playoff games. … The Wizards are 0-4 in Cleveland this season. The lost to the Cavs on Feb. 22, when Cleveland dressed just eight players one day after its three-team trade with Chicago and Seattle.

SOURCE: http://sports.yahoo.com/nba/recap?gid=2008042105

Lebron against Wizards.

LeBron James was built for basketball. Without him, Cavaliers shouldnt be in the playoffs playing with the wizards. I am not telling that lebron james is a one man team and a greedy team player. He really is not that kind of player. He averaged 30 points, 7 rebounds and 7 assists.

Lebron James is not overrated. For DeShawn Stevenson who told the media that lebron was "overrated" before the match, You were just jealous for him. We all know that lebron james is lebron james, he cant be stop. He already proved that he was not a typical guard-forwards who shot jumpers from the arc when the defense was too tight to drive but instead to drive and made contacts. King James is a very famous for his dunks and great art of drives. With just that kind of skill, he can bring his team to the top.

This is unfinished.

Miss ko na sila.

Miss ko na talaga lahat ng batchmates ko sa pinas. talaga! sobrang miss ko na sila as in sobrang tatahimik ulit ako pag nakita ko sila right now.

natatandaan ko nung umattend ako nung performance nung batch ko sa southridge. tae. hindi ko man lamang nasabe ung mga gusto kong sabihin. syempre. napatahimik ako sa sobrang saya na nagkita kita ulit kami at medyo naging uncomfortable ako sa kanila. sa tagal naming hindi nagkita.

pero sa totoo lang miss ko na lahat ng batchmates ko sa Sacred Heart School, sa Southridge tas syempre hinding hindi ko kakalimutan ung mga tarantado kong batchmates at mga upper batchmen sa Lycee.

Hindi lang naman ung mga batchmates ko ung gusto kong makita. ung mga kaibigan kong sobra kung mangasar saken at nagtataka kung napipikon ba ako or hindi. haha. ung mga taga-Armstrong Villas, and ung mga new friends ko bago ako umalis, mga Sta. Rita Tambay and DotA boys.

Tae talaga. sobrang miss ko na talaga sila.

pero alam kong magkikita pa din naman tayo eh. makakabunggo ko din ang isa sa kanila. sana makilala pa at hindi makalimut sa mga naging magagandang pagsasama.

10 signs kapag brokenhearted

Sa opinion ko, itong 10 bagay ay totoo at minsa'y hindi kayang aminin sa harap ng tao sa sobrang totoo ng mga ito. pakasaya.


1.) Hunger stroke- Kahit na gutom hindi parin kumakain.Minsan hindi makaramdam ng gutom..malalaman mo na lang na kailangan mo nang kumain kapag randam mo na nahihilo ka na.

2.) Lamoness- Ito yung tipo na gusto mo na lang kumain, lahat..basta masarap pero pag kumakain ka naman e lumilipad sa kawalan ang isipan at parang wala kang nalalasahan.

3.) Kama derie- Palaging nasa kama. Pero hindi naman natutulog. Mas feel mo na patay ang ilaw..nag iimagine ng mga good memories ninyo then kung ano yung bagay na kapalpakan na iniisip mong sana hindi nalang nanyari then saka ka magiisip na sana totoong may time
machine.

4.) Kama tose- Palaging nasa kama rin. Pero para matulog lang. Tulog lang ang sagot sa problema. Magigising ka na lang para kumain ng konti, jumingel, o magbasa ng text message at nagbabaka sakali na may marereceive kang txt messages na " I miss u d q pla kyang
mwala ka, tyo na ulet" or "Ikw pla tlaga ang lab q,at hindi sya".

5.) Mall freak- Feel mo na i treat na lang ang sarili. Bibili ka ng kahit na kung anong gusto mong bilhin(kapag may pera). Sa pag uwi saka mo lang mapapansin na mga walang kwentang bagay pala ang pinamili mo.

6.) The Barkad's- Mag aaya ka ng mga kaibigan mo na mag mall kayo o mamasyal, kadalasan yung mga kaibigan na alam mong kilala at alam ang kwento ninyo. Umaasa ka rin sa mga comments na tulad ng mga ganito "Feel ko mahal ka parin nun, Siya ang may mali pare,
Ipakikilala kita sa ibang kilala ko na mas maganda pa ron(my favorite), Magkakabalikan rin kayo" at iba pang comments na alam mong makakapag paginhawa sa iyo.

7.) Beermate- Common na ito.Kadalasang unang ginagawa sa unang araw na nabasted/nakipag break ang dyowa/may ibang lalaki ang dyowa/dating lalaki pala ang dyowa. May 2 uri nito.

1.)Mas gusto ng may kasama para may paglalabasan ng sama ng loob.
2.)Mas prefer na walang kasama. Mas gustong nagiisa. Kapag lasing sila
yung kadalasang nagpapakilalang anak
ng mayor,congressman o general.

8.) Suicidal- Common na rin. Minsan panakot lang. Kadalasang may titulo na "Mahal na mahal kita" "Hindi ko kayang mawala ka" ang mga suicide notes. Pang jologs na style e yung text message sa mahal mo na magpapakamatay ka then saka mag we wait ng mga ilang oras para sa reply nya na "Wag mong i2loy yan, mgusap tyo, mhal prin kta".

9.) Internitwit- Ito yung mga tipo ng sa internet naglalabas ng sama ng loob. Tambay ng chatrooms at nagbabaka sakaling may makikitang kapalit nya at mawawala yung pagka broken hearted in an instant. Meron ding sumasali ng mga internet forums para lang mambwiset.

10.) Haterz- Ito yung kadalasang kinauuwian ng mga mabababaw. Ito yung tipo na sisisihin ang lahat ng ka gender ng nanakit sa iyo. Nagiging favorite motto ang: "Pare pareho lang yang mga lalaki/babae..mga manloloko".

broken. again.

nagsimula lahat ng ito nung 6th form ako. internet addict pa ako nung mga time na un. add ng add kung sino sino. random peeps. random people. random person. haha. tas bigla ko na lang napaadd ung kaklase ko sa computer.

oo aaminin ko na. may maliit na crush ako sa kanya ung mga oras na un. maganda sya sa paningin ko. nagusap kami sa internet. konti konting napadikit ang aming pagsasamahan. gumagaan ang loob pag nakakausap. at kinuha ko ung number nya. ngitiy hindi matumbasan nung mga oras na un. kinikilig na para lang nakikiti sila piolo at juday sa bagong pelikula sa tuwing nakakausap.... pero sa net lang.

hindi kami masyado nakakapagusap sa school or even sa personal. sobra ang takot ko. hindi ko talaga alam kung anu sasabihin. kung paano ko uumpisahan ang lahat. kung.. ewan! torpe. oo alam ko yan. ako yan eh.

matagal tagal kaming nagtext. minsa'y inask ako kung pwede daw ako sumama sa kanya manuod ng sine. eto nanaman si gago. napakadaming ginawang excuses para lang maka-hindi. loser talaga ako. ewan ko kung bakit ako takot. kung san ako nagdadalawang isip bakit ako humindi. pinagsisisihan ko talaga ung mga araw na un. bobo ko. oo sisihin mo na ako. ako yan eh.

nakalimutan ko na kung kelan to nangyare. may pinagawa ako sa kanya sa white board ko sa bebo. nagdraw naman sya. sinabeng mahal nya ako noon pero hindi na. nagulat naman ako tas bigla kong dinelete ung drawing na un (baka kasi makita ng iba eh). hindi ko na lang pinansin un. binalewala.

sa pangalawang beses. inask ulit akong manuod ng sine. ito nanaman si tanga humindi ulit. nanginig mga tuhod ko nun nung mga oras na un. tanga ko talaga. gusto pa naman akong ilibre. nakapanuod na sana ako ng libre. hay. anu ba yan. tanga talaga ni tanga.

hay. ngaun. 7th form na ako. sa pangatlong beses nakapagchat ulit kami. medyo nagbago na ang lahat. gumaan na ang lahat. as in lahat. nakakapagusap na kami sa shool ng kahit papanu hindi tulad ng dati na hirap talaga kaming makapagusap. hehe.

inask nya ako sa pangatlong beses at syempre sa dalawang pinagsisihan ko. nung mga oras na un. nakapanuod na din kami ng sine. naks! iba ung naramdaman ko nun. parang may chemistry na kaming dalawa. dun na nagsimula lahat ng makukulit na imagination sa isipan ko na kaming dalawa daw ang takda. basta ung mga parang ganun. haha

tinotopak talaga ako sa mga ganitong pangyayare kung san tumitibok ng triple triple ang dibdib minu-minuto. ewan ko nga eh. basta ung mga parang ganun.

napatanung ko sa sarili kung sya na ba? sabi ko oo. sya na nga. mukhang gusto nya naman ako at nagustuhan ko na din sya. ewan. gusto ko sana syang iask sa prom. parang bakla na natataranta tuwing nasa harap. tsk. pero okay lang nagiging close na din naman kami. napapadalaw minsan sa ulo ko na kaming dalawa na nga para sa isat isa. anu ba yan.

tatapusin ko na tong kalokohan ko.

kahapon, nakapagtext kami. hindi kasi masyado nagtetext kaya kinulit ko sya sa text tas nasabe ko na miss ko sya. tinanung nya ako kung totoo ba un. sabi ko oo. tinanung nya kung may gusto ako sa kanya. sabi ko oo. tinanung nya kung anung klase. kung as a friend daw ba or sumthing. sabi ko more than friend. un. hindi na sya nagreply. syempre parang gusto nyang ibahin ung usapan. ewan.

kanina. hindi nanaman sya syempre nagtetext. eto nanaman si linta. kinulit sa text. medyo okay naman hanggang sinabe nya na hindi ko sya pwedeng maging syota kasi may boyfriend sya. ouch. saket. kung kelan nagustuhan ko na sya at lahat lahat pa. dun pa nasira lahat. pero sabi ko okay lang kami. good friend na lang. diba?

My PLAYOFF'S Teams Bet.

EAST

Boston Celtics (1) v Atlanta Hawks (8)
Detroit Pistons (2) v Philadelphia 76ers (7)
Orlando Magic (3) v Toronto Raptors (6)
Cleveland Cavaliers (4) v Washington Wizards (5)

WEST
Los Angeles Lakers (1) v Denver Nuggets ( 8 )
New Orleans Hornets (2) v Dallas Mavericks (7)
San Antonio Spurs (3) v Phoenix Suns (6)
Utah Jazz (4) v Houston Rockets (5)

The NBA Playoffs are about to begin on April 19th! The last 2 days of the regular season are being played out but the positions for the Eastern Conference are pretty much set. The West still has some final positioning battles going on and we will have the final matchups in 2 days time.

Mensahe para kanino?

"Takot ako sa daga pero higit diyan meron pa akong ibang kinatatakutan. Hindi yung halimaw kong Prof. sa Accounting, hindi rin yung babaeng nagpaiyak sakin (iyakan daw ba yung babae, siyempre nanay ko yun). Takot ako sa kinabukasan. Takot akong makita ang hinaharap natin, tayo bilang mga Pilipino (naks makabayan). Napakagulo ng lipunan natin: pulitika, seguridad, pananalapi at halos lahat ng aspeto ng lipunan. Takot akong tumanda at magkapamilya nang hindi si...ang asawa ko, oops mali! Ibig kong sabihin, takot akong tumanda at magkapamilya sa napakagulo at walang kasiguraduhang lugar na 'to"

URL:
http://peyups.com/article.khtml?sid=4348


Hindi talaga yan ang topic na gustong ipalabas ng gumawa ng article na yan. Sabihin nating natripan ko ung part na yan. Yan kasi ako. Yan ang mga araw araw na pumapasok sa ulo ko. Ang gulo nga eh. Parang minsan ayaw ko na mabuhay. Nahihirapang huminga. Ewan. Hindi dapat to pinoproblema ko. Kung paano dapat ako pumasa sa susunod na exams ko. Kung paano ko mapapaimpress ang mga teachers ko. Yun dapat. Hai. Hindi din kasi maiwasang isipin ang mga ganitong bagay sa mga araw na palapit na palapit na ang takda (kung anu man plano mo saken).

Wednesday Morning.

I just woke up couple minutes ago. I saw this fog outside the house and I hate that. It was saying that winter is coming. damn. I really hate winter. It makes me wet everytime. Even at school. and I really hate the most is when it is so freezing cold. Hai.

Argh!

Anu ba? Anu ba problema mo? Bakit ba ayaw mo ako lubayan? Ilang beses na kitang pinunit sa mga alaala. Hindi naman tayo nagkakaintindihan. Bakit parang iisa lang ang sinalangan nating dalawa. Asar na talaga ako sayo. Lintek naman oh. Hindi ka na nakakatuwa. Pinapaalis na kita kanina pa. Dinaan ko ang maliit na butas ng karayom para makita at masilayan yang walang tumbas na ngiti mo. Nanghihina ang tuhod at nanginginig ang katawan tuwing nakakaharap. Nabablanko ang isipan pag 'ka'y nakakausap. Wala. Patay ako sayo. Eto ang pangyayareng ayaw na ayaw ko sa lahat. Ang Mapaibig sayo. Alam kong alam mo na mahirap talaga 'to.

Tigas talaga ng kokote mo no? Asar na talaga ako. Pero sige bigyan mo ako ng isa pang pagkakataon para mapalabas ko sayo na totoo ako. Lahat ng gusto kong sabihin ay hirap lage. Hindi pa ako nasasanay na nakakausap ka. Sanay lahat ng ito'y maging maayos para tayo'y magkayos na din.

Sige. Pababayaan na kita. Sanay akin ka na lang.

Story from behind

Fah. It has been months since my last blog. Hehe. So many things happened that I did not expect. Im quiet this past few days. I don't know why. So many things popping up to my mind. About school crap. About this girl. About my life. About my family. I know it is not like a normal person does. I should having fun right now. Socialising. I don't know why this all things stopping me. I don't know what to do now especially when it comes with my family.

DAMN.

i just hate it.

i am now in the certain point in my
life that i have to make decisions,
important decisions..

but then, i am also in a scenario that
i fear to decide, maybe because i
fear to risk, i fear to fail in the
future..

i hate it because i don't have any
choice but to decide..i just hate it.

i am now in the certain point in my
life that i have to make decisions,
important decisions..

but then, i am also in a scenario that
i fear to decide, maybe because i
fear to risk, i fear to fail in the
future..

i hate it because i don't have any
choice but to decide.. damn.

tuldok at kuwit

Ayokong hanapin mo ako dahil sa hindi mo ako makita, (malabo) dahil sa hindi mo ako maramdaman.(malabo pa rin)

Nitong nagdaang mga araw, nagbabago ako ng anyo. Isa akong yelo, na nakakulong sa bakal na puno ng kalawang. Hindi tumatakbo ang oras. Paano ako makakawala nang hindi natutunaw? Nang hindi nadudumhan?

Kung dumating ang oras na maghahanap ka, puntahan mo ang nagliliparang alikabok. Isa ako sa kanila. At kung sakaling mapuwing ka, isipin mong ako ang pumupuwing sa 'yo para di ka masaktan. Gusto kong maramdaman mo ang aking presensya nang hindi ako nakikita.

Kung madaan ka sa mga halaman, 'wag kang kukuha ni isang dahon man lang, baka ako ang iyong mapitas, malulungkot ako.

Pag ninais kong muling magbagong anyo, (ayoko pa) 'wag kang umasang makita ako, mag-iiba ako ng pormat disenyo.

Kung mapadaan ka sa umaagos na tubig, damhin mo iyon ng iyong mga palad. Wag mong punasan, isipin mo ako, hayaan mong matuyo at saka ako maglalaho.

Isipin mo lang akong tumatawa, tulad ng lagi kong ginagawa. Isipin mo lang akong tinotopak, at tawagin mo akong baliw, hindi pa rin ako masasaktan, tulad ng dati.

Hindi mo man ako makita, hindi ako lalayo. Magbago man ako ng anyo, ako pa rin ako. 'Wag mo na akong hanapin dahil hindi ako nagtatago, pero hindi ako magpapakita. Hayaan mong lumipas ang panahon...hanggang sa naisin kong ilapit ang langit sa aking puso...doon lang ako magiging malaya.

I really like this short story. It relates to my life at the moment.

URL: http://peyups.com/article.khtml?sid=4361

birthday present

it is late to write something about my birthday. it was in the 22nd, friday, i really hated that day because i needed to change my options. mr. smith, the commerce head department, didnt allow me to continue taking accounting because i wasnt able to qualify for the ncea. in a short way, i ddnt pass it. because of that crap, i ddnt able to go to my 3 periods and i ddnt have my lunch. im was in misery that time. i went back-and-fort to the deans office and to other departments to have a permission to take my new options. it ddnt go well. i needed to go to school on monday to have a sign of this teacher. i ddnt feel that it was my birthday when im was at school. it was a relief that i got home. im was so exhausted for that day. i decided to have a quick nap. i woke up at around 8pm and the whole house was not so organised. nothing to eat. im was bummed that night. im was starving but i resisted to wait till the next morning.

the next day, saturday! it was a rainy day, very rainy. my sister cooked a spaghetti for lunch and dinner. it was delicious. after lunch, me and dad went to lynn mall for a car change oil. and surprisingly, my dad gave me $40 for a present. im was shocked and thankful for that because i wanted to buy a cap. after few minutes, i bought a cap worth $30. it is a quiksilver cap that have net. after that, me and dad went to center, where opus dei's place.dad told me that i will have a confession. its been years since i had my last confession and it was back in philippines. i met new people from that place and i had my first confession here in new zealand.

it wasnt a very good birthday celebration and wasnt a bad one either. i ddnt expecting anything from anyone for my birthday but still, there was people who shows that they really care about me. and im was touched.

for the people who havent greeted me yet, there is still next time or you could greet me for my very very very advanced happy 18th birthday.

clean and green

its been 3 months since i last tasted the filter of the cigar. i could not imagine that it used to be my lifestyle before. it made me really feel bad. everytime i see a cigar or a person puffing some of it, i always remember the days of my life with that toxin all over my body. before, i had a really bad days with sports especially in basketball. i had difficulties with my breathing and when im running too. i felt sick that time and felt sorry for myself. but it was my past and it would never be my future. i already found my new lifestyle, my real hobby and the new me. it was like im new born again. im living right now with much more better way than before. because of that, i started exercising and brought back my healthy breathing. i lost a lot of weight. i ddnt have the specific weight that i lost but many friends and people from my family noticed that im really thinner compared before. now, im competing for the school athletics day on thursday, i hope that i would be in the top competitors in the competition.

scrumptuous dish i made for saturday lunch!

its Adobong Manok with Pineapple Chunks and hard-boiled egg. Adobo is one of the Filipino delicacies that i really love! even my family loves it too. my dad and my two sisters enjoyed my dish. im happy for that.

if you want to know the ingredients. umm.. search it on google!

mean day, friday!

well well well, friday! its not really a special day for me until when i played ball with michael and his boys in interval time. typical michael game, greediness, he really dont pass the ball which is really greedy and with his not so and1 moves. im really piss off at michael. so when he was trying drive at me, i purposely pushed him with real force and he fell hard. he really got pissed at me, i knew that. but when the bell rang, i had the last shot to finish the game, and michael got a plan for revenge, he purposely slap my left ear where i got my two earrings and luckily, my shot got in. i didnt really notice anything after the bell until when i felt something wierd on my left ear and bang! there was blood behind my ear. it was disgusting, hard. the only way i did, i cleaned it by my handkerchief. well, before my accounting class, it was already all good. at lunch time, i didnt play ball instead i played touch with friends. it was really a nice game. i got 4 touches. im proud of it!

yeap, crap! mrs. dayal, my esol teacher, she told me that i need to take level 3 english this year and not her class. waaahhh. i hope i can convince her to not let me take that class. we will see on monday!

anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to nicholas young! haha. i dont know how old he is now. i really had fun last night with them and with those mandarin foods! its really oily! exaggeratedly oily!

next week

im excited for next week, its not because its my birthday, its because of the athletics day. i joined 3 events in the athletics day. in 100m and 200m sprint, and the other one is 400m sprint. im really really excited. i couldnt wait no more for next week. i wanna prove that i really have something to show them.

Underdog

yesterday, wednesday, me and my friends tried to sign up for the try outs for the senior volleyball team. first, i felt excited and kinda nervous because i dont really know what to expect. i dont know how do they play it. i hardly play volleyball too. when me and my friends were in the gym and changing my clothes, im pretty shocked how high they jump and with a perfect posture of striking the ball. i felt envy that time to that guy. i dont really mind it because he plays volleyball almost everyday and im not. i just did my thing their. i didnt do pretty well on that trial. after a two hour trial, the coaches announced who will be in the team for the rest of the season. i thought that i had a chance to be in the team because i got that height and high jump that they needed. but they already called 15 persons out of 20 of us and im not one of the people called. i got disappointed about myself that time and slowly i realised how good they were. their was a conclusion entered my mind while im walking yesterday, that im an underdog to volleyball.

Only teachers day

no school day again.

i didnt have a goodnight sleep last night because of my dad's snore. even that he's in the next room to my room, i can actually hear the distracting noise of his snore. its really killing me. i should have slept earlier and didnt wait for him to sleep last night. well, i will try not to happen this again to sleep before my dad. i will try.

i started my day with the dishes, washing it. its ordinary to me already, like, its already my hobby when my mom's not around and the kitchen is messy. after that, i watched t.v., im was watching 'good morning' that time. its like a morning news talk show in new zealand. i didnt really like it but i watched it to be updated to what is already happening to the place that im living. after lunch, karen and her bf went to my house to stay for a few minutes. it was the first time that i saw karens new boyfriend. for my opinion, i still like gerald to be with karen because they were a cute couple and they have been to each other for almost a year now. well, its not my life and i dnt really care about their issue. moooovving ooon. my dad went home to get his things because his gonna have a 3 day stay in wellington. i feel not that happy and not that sad too. im just not used to that most of the family were not at home. i dont want that to happen but i cant stop them to not leave because its life. we just need to move on and seek for a better beggining.

well.. im pretty excited for tomorrow, school days again but all good. :D i already have my plans for the rest of the school year. i will not leave this year with doubts. i hate that.

pretty boring life

when i woke up, i just realised that i dont need to go to school today because we dont have. i feel pretty good about that. but after that, i felt really bored. as in. to the point that i want to sleep again and dont care about the time. obviously i didnt do that.

when i went downstairs, i got shocked what a mess i saw in my sight. well, i washed the dishes and cleaned the dirt that i didnt even do. i got used to it too. staying home alone, cleaning all the mess they left, wathing t.v., and i know its a not so good day for me when there's no school. i hate this. really. i dont really have a choice for that. that's the reality of my life.

ive been thinking this lately that i really need a life. a life that everyone wanted to have.
i need someone that will bring my life to the fullest. wherein im gonna wake up in the morning to spend my day without doubts and with so much happiness behind my smiles, not those smiles having a very sad stories.

common friend

as you can see, this is my first entry here on blogspot.

awhile ago, before i made this account, im was looking around on friendster and i saw this asian girl who went to avondale college that i have secretly crush on her but i dont think that she'll know about that because we dont even know each other. thats gay. BUT we have a common friend and shes in her home country now, i dont have any idea if shes coming back here in new zealand to study.

I dont mind if shes coming back or not. Its just a crush. A typical crush to an asian girl in campus.