Rely

Nagbabalik.. Tagal ko ng hindi nakakapagpost dito sa blog ko..
Anyways.. bakit ba talaga ako ganito? sobrang badtrip talaga.. buti pa sila may lakas ng loob na magsabe ng totoo sa mga gusto nila.. ako.. naghihintay sa panahong hindi lage nangyayare.. ewan ko.. mahina lang talaga ang loob ko.. mahina na magsabe ng totoo.. mahina ako sa lahat ng bagay na gusto kong gawin.. na gusto kong kunin.. na gustong gusto ko sa buhay.. badtrip talaga.. kailan na ba ako magbabago.. kailan na ba ako magiging magaling sa bagay na makakapagbago sa mahina kong buhay.. malas na buhay.. sa tingin ko pa nga.. wala akong buhay.. badtrip.. ngaun.. naghihintay sa panahon na makakapagbago saken.. at sa mga taong dumadating, patawad kung hindi ako ganun kagaling na makipagkilala sa inyo at nakakapagkalamang snoberong lalakeng.. pero hindi lang talaga ako madaling magbigay ng tiwala sa mga taong sa tingin kong iiwan din ako kinabukasan.. naninigurado lang..

pero..

iba ang nasa isip ko ngaun.. pagibig..

papanu ko ba 'to sisimulan na sobrang gusto ko ng sumabog.. sobrang nawawalan na ako ng pagasa sa babaeng, sa tingin kong sya na lang ang naiiwan saken dito.. PERO mali ang lahat ng iyon.. ako lang talaga ang may problema.. ewan.. ewan.. ewan.. un na lang lage nasa isip ko.. badtrip.. hindi na nagbago.. pero kahit ganun pa din ang nasa isip.. umaasa pa din na sana kahit konti na magkagusto saken.. sana.. sana.. sana nga mangyare un.. at sa tingin ko naman na possible un.. pero hindi pa siguro.. mababa pa sa 50% ang pagasa.. pero alam kong tataas pa at dadating ang panahon na mapapaibig din sya saken.. hehe..



ANYWAYS..




BYE.!

If One Day You Found Me Gone

if one day you woke up and found me gone
with no trace to where i would have been
would you dare to look for me?

and if your search took you so long
will it ever occur to you to stop looking?
will you ever get tired waiting?

and if you realized that i’ll be gone forever
would you still think of me?
would you still remember our moments together?

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/05/12/if-one-day-you-found-me-gone/

When Loneliness Strikes

when loneliness strikes and kills my peace
i can’t move a bit and i got stuck in my place
i can’t breathe, i can’t think, i am numb
the world around me moves in fast phase
the time is so fast as well as my heartbeat
i am now starting to feel dizzy
and my sight is starting to blur
i am trapped in confusion and i am freaking
this moment of shock is killing me
i can’t talk, my lips are sealed
i can’t move, my body is glued standing
i am struggling, i am going to faint
this loneliness is suffocating me
i can’t grasp to anything around me
nobody could hear, my lips are still sealed
take me somewhere, be with me
i am alone and i don’t wanna be


SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/05/12/when-loneliness-strikes/

You

you stayed with me
when i was alone

you lend me your shoulder
when i was crying

you shared me your strength
when i was weak

you become my guide
when i was lost

you told me “have faith”
when i was hopeless

you gave me attention
when i was ignored

and you loved me much
more that i think you can =)

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/02/14/you/

Killing Me In Silence

a moment of silence is echoing around me
as i watch the ticking of the clock’s hand
the time is so slow like it will never end

i am being suffocated with empty words
i am being haunted with the guilt inside
i want this to end right away but i can’t

the silence of the day is killing me
the pain inside is growing much more
the bigger it gets, the more i suffer

kill me now and end my suffering
the more i hear of this silence
the much more i feel the pain

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/04/04/killing-me-in-silence/

Once in My Life

Once in my life
I fell in love
I learned to give up
Everything that I had
But then, once in my life
I fell out of love
Suffering the pains
It had given my heart
I stumbled down
And bleed out
But then, once in my life
I learned to conquer
All the pains and fear
And then, each day of my life
Helped heal the wound
Inside of me
Helped me to forget
All that had happened
And soon I realized
That once in my life
I met a man
Who taught me about
The real meaning of love.

SOURCE: http://jhoyimperial.wordpress.com/2008/04/09/poem-once-in-my-life/

Once Again

All the laughter
That we had
All the sad moments
That we shared
Are all engraved in my mind
I don’t know why
You’re still in my thoughts
I’m just being honest
With myself and with you
That I can’t forget
All the times we’re together
Sharing smiles and tears
To one another
I know it’s my fault
That’s why you go away
And now you’re gone
Gone out of my sight
Gone out of my side
Gone without words of goodbye
I can’t help
Not to blame myself
Because of me, you left
And now I am alone
Sitting by the window
Waiting for your call
I gaze at the sky
Watched the twinkling of stars
And wished by the moon
That someday, somehow
I’ll learn to forget
Your voice, your face
Your sweetness and kindness
And as the day passes by
I wished that time
Would heal the wounds in my heart
Once again.


SOURCE: ilovepoetry.com